You take me as I am
Into your new scarred hands
and when I run so far away
you always call me back again
into your open arms
not matter what ive done
amazing grace has found me here
because of what you've done, for me
PlanetShakers - Weight of the World
astO loves her friends, bowling, baking, bowling, reading, bowling, writing, bowling, ManUtd, bowling.
Kutless, The Lads, Switchfoot, MercyMe, Stacie Oricco, Avalon, blah blah blah
Astoria Needs to Stop Spending.
*Jason (Hsien Xian)
Image: [Double Rainbow]
Don't Know Why I Even Bother.
Friday, September 23, 2005
Just a friend.
Don't know why I bother sometimes to ask.
Should just ignore.
You make it sound like I'm not allowed to ask, or be concerned.
And nowadays, messages go unreplied. Even if it's just a friendly chatter or joke.
It's not the same as last time.
Never Give your Heart Away
Monday, September 19, 2005
The past few months have been recking havoc on me.
All the wild thoughts, all the endless ramblings and all the over thinking.
It's time for me to put all of these behind and move on.
I got to learn never to give my heart away, especially when nothing is going to happen.
It just makes me hurt. Not anymore though.
I'm over it.
I don't know why I'm typing this but I guess it's like closing one chapter of my life.
Finally I can let go and move on.
No more unhappiness and I can smile and laugh.
So much more free and happier!
I've said for so long that I'm giving up, yet I never did.
It can only be a good thing.
10 Stupid Facts about Me
I saw this on Abel's Blog and I thought I'll do the same. Enjoy my stupid facts.
::Stupid facts of astO::
1. I hate soya bean.
2. I love the Beach Boys.
3. I want to go to New Zealand again.
4. I love cookery books.
5. My favourite channel is Discovery Travel and Living.
6. I love Manchester United.
7. My favourite car is the Mini Cooper.
8. I actually like skirts, but I don't wear them because I'm not a girly girl.
9. Ditto for make up. Even if I use it, it doesn't show up on my face so no point.
10. I can't cycle.
11. I love doing art.
12. I use a Kenwood Chef Classic Mixer when I'm mixing dough.
13. I use my discman when I sleep. It's plugged into my ears.
14. I can only sleep 2 hours when I do that.
15. I hate doing furniture design.
16. I love drafting. Somewhat.
17. Copic Markers and colour pencils are my kids.
18. I love babies and toddlers.
19. People say I'm domesticated. *sheesh*
20. I like Adidas.
21. I adore IAD.
22. Vectoring rocks.
23. I hang out mostly with IMD and IAD people in school.
24. I want to play the piano again.
25. I love Bowling and Team Xynergy.
Sunday, September 18, 2005
Okay, I'm back.
After a long layoff.
Well, okay, not thatttt loooonng.
To SZ: I din know you want to go! If I knew earlier, I will ask you to go lah. Next time ok? hahah...
To JingHuiiii: hahaha.. Here's an update. Look at the other for more. heheheh
Today's training was damn cool.
My ball's on the right track. Yahoo!
Thanks to Nick for helping me.
But must remember not to grip.
Tomorrow better remember there's a roll off.
I want to bowl more!
After training, the whole bunch of us when to Macs.
I wasn't too keen on Macs actually.
That's not called proper food.
But we couldn't have Kenny Rogers cause it ain't halal.
After that, 7 of us when to Marina South to play arcade.
Me, She Na, Jill, ShaoZong, Nick, Boon and Alvin.
Then sat in Victor's and talked and talked and talked.
Before heading home.
I just woke up some more, and my net connection is down.
Well... I don't know what to type already.
If I can think of anything I will update.
Thursday, September 08, 2005
Zouk was fantastic.
So were the drinks.
I think I almost got drunk.
Was super high after the first drink.
I forgot to eat before I came, so I drank on an empty stomach.
Music was fantastic as well.
Mambo nights are the best.
I want to go there again.
Tomorrow will be bowling with some of the IMD gang.
Yikes, I feel extra and I don’t know most of them.
This means lugging my bowling ball to school.
I still have to complete the murals with my friends.
I need to say this here.
Thanks to Adrian, Jinghui, Wei Shan, Xin Yi, Siyuan and Gillian
Thank you for listening to me, letting me rant and rave and offering advice.
I appreciate it. A lot.
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
Jinghui tells me to chill, chew, threw, and all the other words that rhyme.
And also to throw out matters that are bugging me right now.
I must say I agree, but I just can't seem to let go.
Adrian tells me he wants to bake now.
But he's scared he'll wake the neighbourhood with the smells.
Okaeeee... It won't happen, because I have baked at 3 am many times before.
We're going to Zouk tomorrow.
I can't wait.
Then bowling on Friday.
This week is the best.
There are a lot of things bothering me now.
Sunday, September 04, 2005
Looking back at this semester, there's a lot I should be thankful for. Friendships that I have made, friendships that have progressed to be closer friends rather than just acquaintances, opportunities that I have been given, I think the list will go on and on until there's no more room for typing.
I hadn't been writing essays lately. Ever since I resolved to write in sentences just because it seemed easier to read, which was probably sometime in April? But since I'm in a reminiscing mode, the best way I felt was just to write in a essay format.
Starting this semester, I felt a bit apprehensive. It was the start of being a Junior, no more Freshmen. Time where I had to grow up a bit more than the last 2 semesters. Lecturers definitely not going to be understanding anymore. School was fine the first few weeks, and then training resumed as well. I was able to meet up with mates that I had not over the off season. School started to get back into its groove. Well, the normal groove for me, juggling school with CCA. Which some people wondered how I managed to. I just managed, no how...
Much of my friendships have progressed. The many friends that I have made during my tenure as part of DES Orientation Ex-Co have stuck with me, some becoming trusted friends that I very much treasure. Having friends that was by me when I cried, when I was feeling alone, it just shows me that really, I'm not alone (ironic isn't it?). Learning from mistakes made, made me a better friend. Being there for them, helping them, it's just my nature. Sometimes, things happen that I wonder to myself, why in the first place did I help? Isn't it better that I don't? But then I come to realize later, that this is part of who I am. I can't run away no matter how much I try.
I dub this semester as the semester of Love. Pretty hilarious if you actually witness what's been going on. It started with one couple in my course. And then it spread to another discipline where by now I believe that 3 couples have sprung up. Not forgetting all the crushes, infatuation, and the likes. This is where all the juicy stuff is. I'm not different from the rest. I have likes and all too. Just that I feel that I'm not good enough for anyone. I feel most guys like to look on the outside. In theory, people always say that's not true, there are people that look on the inside. I know that, but then I always think, I'm not as pretty as the rest of the girls are, that's why I haven't gotten a date in my whole entire life. Okay, inferiority complex. I do like a guy currently, some of you may know. Currently in the midst of giving up. haha. I do reckon he knows, but I feel nothing is going to happen so yeap. That is what I'm going to do right now.
Bowling this semester has been great for me personally. I'm improving which I'm quite happy about though I still need to be more consistent. I strive to shock everybody with my scores. hahah. I know I can, just that I don't get enough practice. Oh well. Freshmen came into the squad this year. And most of them are really nice. One of my mates commented that I'm quite ''gum'' with them now. I don't know, I just am able to get along fine with anyone. Whether or not they have anything against me, that I don't know. hee...
I have been typing for the past half and hour. My back's starting to ache. haha. And I still have work that I need to complete. I guess my reminiscing mode has to be put on halt first. hahaa... Ciao..
1. What made you happy this week?
-- Hmm, really happy? All things bowing related and Simpang.
2. What made you sad this week?
-- Work as usual.
3. Has someone/somebody make u happy lately?
-- I think. Not too sure. Bad memory.
4. How are you feeling at the moment?
-- Alright. A little hungry and emo.
6. Are you the type of person who easily gets hurt?
-- Yeap. Some what ultra sensitive.
7. Do you cry?
-- All girls do.
8. Have you ever been to a point in your life that you've thought about giving up?
-- Yes. I was depressed.
9. The last movie you watched?
10. with who?
-- Angeline, ShaoZong, James, Donald.
11. The last song you heard?
-- Angel on My Shoulder by Krystal Harris
12. The last thing you bought?
-- Chicken Chop on Friday before meeting. Which was around five o’clock. I hadn’t eaten the entire day
13. the last place you went ?
-- As in out out? Simpang Bedok.
14. The last food you ate?
-- A piece of chocolate.
15. The last thing you heard from your parents?
-- What time you all going to use the car?
16. The last thing you said to your parents?
-- Eh, today not using. No training.
17. The last thing you said to one of your friends?
-- I’m going to sleep.
18. The last thing you read?
-- Touched by An Angel episodes synopses.
19. The last person you called?
-- Catherine from IAD.
20. The last person who called you?
21. The last person who msg you?
22. The last person who said you're pretty /handsome?
-- Never before, unless you count my parents... ahaha
23. the last person who gave you a testimonial ?
-- Queenie Jill Soong.
24. The last person who messaged you in ym?
-- What’s YM?
25. The last person/s you're with?
-- Ma Famille
.26. The last person you kissed goodnight?
-- No one…
27. the last person you kicked ?
-- Hahah… I can’t remember.
28. The last person you think of before going to sleep?
-- That shall not be revealed. Actually I think of no one.
29. The last thing you're going to do before going to sleep?
-- Talk on MSN.
30. The last time you went clubbing?
-- During May I think. With Stacie, Lionel, Andy, Boon and MeiXuan.
31. What song are you listening to now?
-- Buy Me A Rose by Luther Vandross.
32. Handphone brand?
-- Nokia. Some ‘’lau pok’’ model.
33. Wat would u do if someone tells u he/she likes u?
-- Look incredulously at him, might laugh and go, “why?”
34. Where does u live?
-- Tampines, Singapore.
35. What can't you live w/out?
-- My mates, my music, bowling, ma famille, food (heheh) and God.
36. Who are you thinking of right at this moment?
-- Hmm... No one…
37. what do you want most ?
-- I know what I need. Money to bowl.
38. What would best describe you?
-- Hmm… Nice? I don’t know.
39. Who do you hate?
-- I don’t know…
40. what are you most looking forward to ?
-- Bowling with Shan, Adree, Justin, Abel, Joel.
I’m pretty bored right now.
So I’ve decided to add a wish list for this post.
If you have any spare cash, you could get me these.
Hah, kidding mates.
- U2 iPod
- Adidas shoulder bag (Navy Blue)
- A Leyon/ Bruswick 2 Ball Bag
- A new bowling ball (Any recommendations?)
- D70s Nikon Digital SLR
- Spare Cash for bowling
- Sony Ericsson W800i
- A new set of rechargeable batteries
- A boyfriend (I got someone in mind, but I’m KIDDING!)
Booo… I need to go bowling now….
Saturday, September 03, 2005
Technically, school's out!
Ok, I still have 2 more submissions on Monday.
Then no matter what, Shan, Adrian, Justin, Joel and whoever else want to go are coming bowling with me.
*Evil laughs* I sound like a bi**h.
I got hammered by my parents yesterday.
Apparently the car was dirty.
Mud and stuff.
Well, it was raining.
And when I came home, it was dark.
I couldn't see whether it was dirty or not!
I slept mighty lot yesterday.
And my mum's outburst interupted it.
Actually I can't remember what she said.
I was in a sleepy stupor.
wahhaha... : P
Friday, September 02, 2005
Congratulations to the team again.
1st champions of the inaugural Collegiate League.
Especially She Na.
Topped the women's squad.
Read the New Paper today.
They'll be featured in it.
I'm going to cut out the article and tack it to my cork board.
My mates are famous!
Reached home at half six.
I still need to do my furniture.