You take me as I am
Into your new scarred hands
and when I run so far away
you always call me back again
into your open arms
not matter what ive done
amazing grace has found me here
because of what you've done, for me

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My My, Look At the Date.
Monday, August 28, 2006

It's only the end of August, and my iTunes is playing "Let It Snow, Let It Snow". I reckon they should have this inbuilt date system where you don't play christmas songs till the month of December.

Right, what was the point of this entry again?

I need a new blog skin.

Rainbows still Occur. @11:40 pm

My mind's made up.
Saturday, August 12, 2006

I've made up my mind, thanks largely to an Apple supporter who can't believed I asked him the question of which player to buy. So I've settled on the iPod U2. At least for now. But yes, it's about 99% confirmed that I'll get that.

In other news. I came down with food poisoning yesterday, vomitting my heart out. Even water couldn't be kept in my stomach for longer than an hour. At least I haven't vomitted today. It was funny in the sense that a friend of mine saw me at noon, all laughing and fine. But later that evening when he saw me again, I was sick like hell and still went to help him do his girlfriend's birthday cake. haha. Had hell from my dad when I came home.

Yay, Bangkok in like 5 days.

Rainbows still Occur. @8:42 pm

This or That?
Thursday, August 10, 2006

One of my best friends just asked me how to spell the word, Garbage. The way she spelled it was funny. She's decided not to go to school tomorrow too.

Its Bangkok in 10 days I think. I reckon most of my mates are in the holiday mood. On a happier note, I'm glad with my room mate in Bangkok. My shopping list is more or less out, got to get some things for friends too. Keith says not to wear shorts, bermudas or slippers there. That was my plan. Now got to lug trousers there.

IPOD U2 OR CREATIVE ZEN VISION M? Current score u2 0 - 3vsion m

My iTunes just quit on me.

Rainbows still Occur. @1:30 am

I will celebrate.
Tuesday, August 08, 2006

"I will celebrate
Sing unto the Lord
Sing to the Lord
A new song

With my heart rejoicing within
With my life focused on you
With my hands raised to the heavens
All I am worshipping him."

In times like these, lift the Lord's name. In good and bad times, always praise him, for he's worthy. He still knows best.

Rainbows still Occur. @8:09 pm


It's over, finally. But I'm disappointed in myself, because that's way below my standard. Well, work hard from now. :)

Rainbows still Occur. @7:57 pm

Searching. Desperately.
Sunday, August 06, 2006

It feels like you're searching for a path, for a way out yet nothing is in sight, just overgrown bushes, untended plants, and a whole lot of tangled weeds. It's like you're lost in a maze, searching continually for peace and guidance to find your way out, yet all that's in front of you is a dead end. Why run away from the person who holds the world in his hands, and will never let anything as long as he is still on the throne?

Keep on holding on, even when you're physically, mentally and spiritually tired. The Lord is still on his throne. Be clear of who God is, and his plans for you. Plans to prosper and not to harm you.

Perhaps this describes the turmoil that's in me. I wonder how one human can feel so many emotions all at once, but that's one of the beauty of creation, the creation of a complex being.

"Singing without tongues
Screaming without lungs
I want more than my lonely nation
I want more than my lonely nation
Desperate we are young
Seperate we are one
I want more than my desperation
I Want more than my lonely nation"
-Switchfoot's Lonely Nation.

Rainbows still Occur. @9:17 pm


Just when I thought that I've picked up again, someone has to deal me another blow. And no one understands.

Maybe I should quit. I had enough.

Rainbows still Occur. @3:24 pm

Friday, August 04, 2006

I don't know why I keep feeling this way. I know I shouldn't. It has to get out of my system soon. Nothing's going right at the moment and I wonder why. I think it's me. How much can one endure? Why can't I seem to do anything right? I'm at the lowest point right now. I need to come back up, to where I used to be, to be the person I used to be, and not be afraid of failure. But truthfully I am, and I need to deal with it. Now.

Don't compromise. Grow up.

Thanks to Siyuan and Marian for last night.

Rainbows still Occur. @2:28 pm

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

Bangkok, here I come! Godma's forking out half for me, and I have to fork out the balance. Well, at least now I can go to Bangkok though I'm hestitant.

I'm emo cause I want my handphone and the iPod U2.

Rainbows still Occur. @9:50 pm