You take me as I am
Into your new scarred hands
and when I run so far away
you always call me back again
into your open arms
not matter what ive done
amazing grace has found me here
because of what you've done, for me

PlanetShakers - Weight of the World

astO loves her friends, bowling, baking, bowling, reading, bowling, writing, bowling, ManUtd, bowling.

Kutless, The Lads, Switchfoot, MercyMe, Stacie Oricco, Avalon, blah blah blah

Recent updates
Birthday Month!
Astoria Needs to Stop Spending.
You know?
Another List.
Needful Things.
Food Thoughts.

March 2005
April 2005
May 2005
June 2005
July 2005
August 2005
September 2005
October 2005
November 2005
December 2005
January 2006
February 2006
March 2006
April 2006
May 2006
June 2006
July 2006
August 2006
September 2006
October 2006
November 2006
December 2006
January 2007
February 2007
March 2007
April 2007
May 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
February 2008
March 2008

*Jason (Hsien Xian)

Designer: akiyu
Image: [Double Rainbow]
Brushes: [X]
Hosts: Photobucket ; Blogger
Why couldn't life just be simple?
Tuesday, May 30, 2006

You say I got something to say for everything. Of course I do, especially if it's unfair to me. I'm able to see both sides of the story, but you can't. So because of that ultimately it's my fault? When I try to explain what I feel and why I feel the way I do, you don't want to accept it. So... My fault?

I said I'm not trying to pick a fight with you, but if you think I am, then jolly well go on thinking that way. And to the other issue I'm dealing with, I wish it'll just feck off. Really.

Rainbows still Occur. @6:48 pm

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

Forever you are faithful
Forever you are strong
Forever you are with us
Forever and ever.

Your love endures forever.

I'll hold fast to the promises of you, for you do all things in your time.

Rainbows still Occur. @1:37 am

I'm glad.
Friday, May 19, 2006

What used to hurt me so much, doesn't hurt anymore. And this feeling is great. I don't feel surpressed and I'm able to be myself. It feels like deja vu. Perhaps because it's exactly what happened like 7 months ago.

I loved you and probably still do. But now, in a different form. As siblings.

Rainbows still Occur. @10:43 pm

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

I hadn't been sick for a year I guess, and upon reaching home yesterday, I found out that I had a fever that reached 38.18. I felt so miserable, so cold and yet so warm and was breathing so badly. Fever's gone down, but my throat feels awful.

Anyway, to the boys. Sorry I couldn't join you all last night, actually you all didn't have to cancel just go ahead without me la. hah. But it was nice of you to say "no battle till all the troops are in good spirit". hah. Don't you all rock?

Rainbows still Occur. @12:06 pm

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

I never realised how much we've drifted away until today. It was just a normal conversation, as normal as it can be for us, until something was mentioned. Funny how it is, that we suddenly stopped speaking to each other about certain things, until now. I realised that I was the one that put up a barrier between the two of us, and it made us stop speaking to each other about what was really happening to us.

I don't know if you realised I was struggling with a certain issue, but I've managed to put it behind me now and I can only pray that things would go back to the way it was. It was only until you mentioned that I used to speak to you about things like that but not anymore, that opened my eyes to the fact that I was the one who shut you off, and in turn, you shut me out of your life.

I've learnt that and now, I'm trying to be as open and vunerable to you as I can about issues. Just want to say I treasure our friendship a lot and I look forward (if you would allow me) to have our playground chats once more. :)

Rainbows still Occur. @1:18 am

You Never Knew Gratitude.
Sunday, May 07, 2006

You never knew gratitude. Or what is it to help your friends. You would only help if it's convenient for you or out of obligation. Occasionally I get the glimpse that you're not like that, but then again, it's always like that. You call yourself practical, however, I call that side of you using people. I thought you were a friend that people could depend on.

Apparently not.

Rainbows still Occur. @8:57 am

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

For every visibly undernourished child, there are several more battling a hidden nutritional crisis.

Ann Veneman, Unicef executive director

It's not fair. They've done nothing wrong. They're just children.

Rainbows still Occur. @10:06 pm

The Time Has Come - Hillsong United Live

Found love beyond all reason
You gave your life, your all for me
And called me yours forever

Caught in the mercy fallot
I found hope, found life, found all I need
You're all I need

The time has come
To stand for what we believe in
So I for one
I'm gonna give my praise to you

Today today
It's all or nothing
All the way
The praise goes out to you
All the praise goes out to you
Today today
I live for one thing
To give you praise
In everything I do

Rainbows still Occur. @8:45 pm

A Broken Heart.
Monday, May 01, 2006

God can't mend your broken heart unless you give him all the broken pieces.

Thank God I gave Him everything then.

Rainbows still Occur. @2:34 pm