You take me as I am
Into your new scarred hands
and when I run so far away
you always call me back again
into your open arms
not matter what ive done
amazing grace has found me here
because of what you've done, for me
PlanetShakers - Weight of the World
astO loves her friends, bowling, baking, bowling, reading, bowling, writing, bowling, ManUtd, bowling.
Kutless, The Lads, Switchfoot, MercyMe, Stacie Oricco, Avalon, blah blah blah
3 More Weeks.
Dots Dots Dots.
And Now It's Silly Songs with Larry, the Part of t...
Boring. and some Randomness.
*Jason (Hsien Xian)
Image: [Double Rainbow]
Wednesday, January 31, 2007
You know, it's been three years and my dream has not diminished. I thought it would, then maybe I wouldn't be so miserable. But thus far, it hasn't.
I know now as an interior design student, I'm supposed to be researching on things related to interior design. I'm supposed to be looking up magazines like cubes, ish, etc. However, my favourite magazines are BBC goodfood, Olive, Donna Hay, Baking and Pastry Asian Pacific. I'm still more interesting in baking and pastry. Whether or not I can emulate the cake design, or whether I can make a centrepiece for an occasion, etc. These things matter more to me still, perhaps now more than ever as I come to the end of my tenure in TP. The only thing that mattered to me in TP is my bowling, the friends and the exposure that I was given by certain people to shine.
I feel as if I lost three years of my life. Sometimes I wonder why did I not follow my heart and insist on doing something I had passion for. Nowadays, everyday is like a dread, I need to finish my Finals, but I have no mood, I have no desire.
I just want that stupid piece of paper. That's all. Then maybe if pastry doesn't work out (which I highly doubt will not not happen), I've a backup. For all the money that dad paid, at least I have a stupid piece of paper. Whatever happened to apprenticeship, passion, desire and all? Why does papers seem more important than anything else?
Do I make sense? I don't ask for much really. Just the allowance to bake cakes, make chocolates with approval is all I ask. I'm happy doing it. I love it.
edit: Thailand players are sore losers. Wanting to boycott the match just because of a penalty.